Waiting...still...

It's been a while since I've posted anything.  I guess it's because there's been little in the way of new information.  Everything happened so quickly last month, that so far in July, it seems like everything's back in suspended animation.  We still don't have any idea when we're traveling.  We don't have any new information on Colin.  Where out waiting before was difficult, now that we know we're going to be united with Colin, this waiting seems almost, well, cruel.  I know that God's timing is perfect, and that in His perfect timing, we will be preparing for our trip to meet our son.  But you'll forgive me if I have the urge to scream at the top of my lungs "Now Please!!!!!"

Of course, there is a lot to do in the meantime.  We have to figure out how to get uncirculated bills from a bank (legally, lol).  We have to figure out what to pack for a three-week trip without exceeding 40 pounds in a suitcase.  We have to figure out how to be...parents.

The scary thing is, the more I learn, the more I realize how much I don't know.  I've never changed a diaper (and this is not an invitation to allow me to practice on anyone's kids - I'll wait to learn on my own).  I've never had to discipline a child.  I've never had to figure out how to console a crying child, or communicate with one that can't yet speak.  I've never had to sit back and watch as my child has to get a shot or undergo surgery.  These are all things that are waiting for Anita and I before the end of the year, and, at times, it scares the life out of me.

One thing that I'm good at in life is on-the-job training.  It's served me well in my career, and I'm praying it serves me well in parenting.  Now, if only I could find the user's manual...